I Wanted to Become

• A Beauty Queen!

I keep asking myself why do I want to become a beauty queen? Here's the list why:

1. Smart
2. TALL!
3. Beautiful
4. SEXY! (but I still believe that sexiness is not about the figure! it's about how you carry yourself!) hahaha bitter much? 
5. Graceful
6. A role model
7. Have a great attitude
8. A girl with sophisticated style! 

Well, unfortunately even though I wanted to be a beauty queen I'm not tall! :'( booohooohooohooo! LOOK I'M A MIDGET!!!

I'm not BITTER at all for being small, I believe that I can still be a role model someday even without the help of any precious titles like being a beauty queen. Now I'm doing my best everyday to train myself in becoming a BETTER person with great attitude, have a positive outlook in life and lastly being able to inspire anyone while I'm facing my own problems. 

• An ATHLETE

> I want to become a basketball player. Why?  because it was like every time I was able to successfully shoot the ball on the ring it looks like one step closer to winning. In relation to real life experience being able to become a sharp shooter it was like becoming a person who knows which way to go to become a successful person through hard work and never ending effort. 

>I want to become a volleyball player. Why? because it was like every time I am able to successfully receive the ball in reality it was like being able to react accordingly to a specific situation in life.
>I also want to become a gymnast. Why? because it was like being able to adopt swiftly to change just like those gymnast girls due to their flexibility.

• A SCIENTIST 

I like the feeling of being a SCIENTIST, I like how scientist think especially when they came up with something unbelievable but in the end they can make it possible. I like their dedication to invent new things and breakthroughs that can help man kind. 

• A DANCER

I can dance but I don't have the confidence to join any workshop or organization to enhance my dancing skills. I always end up watching others and just envy them, it sucks that in spite the fact that I want to dance I never did a move to be a good dancer. I wish it's not yet late to make a move for what I want, I hope that I will have the courage to do what I want, because when I dance it was like I'm in a different world where in I can show what I truly feels through my moves.

• A SINGER

When I was a kid, I thought I have that very extra ordinary voice, I thought that I can really sing that's why whenever I have a chance to hold a mic I never stop singing until my throat hurts. But as time goes by I realized that I don't really have the beautiful voice to become a singer. It sucks that I feel disappointed that time because all of a sudden it was like I'm just daydreaming for how many years. But then I won't forget the part when I really felt that I have that great voice, that unexplainable feeling when I sing. I hope if I'm given a chance to live again, I hope God will give me the extraordinary voice that can touch many people. 

I have a long list of what I wanted to become, you can say I'm a very ambitious girl that doesn't do anything to achieve any of it. Well anyway, that's who I am, I'm just a girl who keeps on dreaming but doesn't have the courage to reach any of it. You can say I'm really struggling, I don't know what is good for me, I don't know what should be the right attitude when it comes to certain situations. As for now, I'm still struggling, struggling with the unknown. I wish one day I could help myself to be a better person who can inspire others. Not just a person who live their life for their own sake only.